I'm not too sure how to feel about some news I got earlier today. My friend called me up to tell me that he wants to be a St. Louis bankruptcy attorney. He was really excited about it, so I tried to hide my sadness. I pretty much had to congratulate him through clenched teeth. If I said how I really felt I would've started crying right then and there. I can't believe he's moving out of Chicago. I always figured he'd settle down here. It makes me especially sad because I think I had some secret hopes that some day we would create a life together here. When he told me he had some really big news, some of my friends actually thought he would propose to me. It's no secret we've become extremely close over the years. There were definitely many moments where I thought I sensed some chemistry between us. I know he had a really hard time deciding what he wanted to do with his life and where he wanted to go, so I can understand why he's so excited. This is huge for him. I guess I'm just disappointed that he's not more distraught about moving away from me. To be honest, right now, I don't know what I'm going to do without him.