Well, I never thought I would need to learn it but today I spent the entire day reading about how to file for bankruptcy. I had to finally acknowledge that the situation with my finances has spiraled out of control. I think this is the first step. I'm finally being totally honest with myself. I'm going to start scheduling some appointments this week with a few people to talk about this more in depth. It is definitely scary to think about, but it would have definitely been even more scary to keep going down the same path I've been on. I think I can see how all the things that happened to me over the years added to the chaos. I was spending my money in an attempt to try and figure myself out. I still have a bunch of things around the house that I never use. I thought I wanted to be an artist so I went out and bought a bunch of paints and canvasses. Then when I saw that wasn't going well, I went out and bought a few musical instruments which are still sitting around in their cases. Then I was spending my money in an effort to try and win the affections of a woman that I wanted to fall in love with me. I was really lost. In spite of everything that's going on, I feel so much more confident about the path I'm on now.